I know not everyone is on FB And honestly there are days when I wish I wasn’t either – bunch of dang internet stalkers there – and I don’t need it – not right now. True – it is the only way I know my sister is alive and a few people post things that are interesting – but so much crap. and comparing and lies and half truths – and just to sift through the fifty tons of crap to see how one little event turned out – not worth it – I think I turned off every notification on that site. ::blech::
I may have mentioned this before – but I am not a good “worshipper” type person. I don’t get overwhelmed in emotion – I don’t appreciate my feelings being manipulated for some kind of spiritual experience. And to be quite honest it makes me nervous to be around people that are so quick to switch gears from normal type regular person to Super holy fluttery singing crying person. It quite honestly freaks me out.
People tell me that I need to let the spirit move me – ummm why?
I don’t like to have people touch me.
I don’t like to have people being overwhelmed around me.
Because it makes me look like an ass. Mostly.
I just don’t function like that.
A friend invited us to a messianic fellowship a couple of weeks ago. these folks here: https://youtu.be/gL_exS8fjWk
Meh – the teacher…I don’t have anything against him – he may be quite smart and all – I just didn’t have much of a connection with him. There were a few people there that I really enjoyed talking to though, we came in late – everyone was disappointed that we missed worship time with the flags and dancing and all – nope not me – I am ok to be missing that. It’s like walking in on your brother and his girlfriend kissing – awkward. I will sit for the teaching. Ok ok ok. It was like national lampoons at the grand canyon – wow. that’s something – ok time to go!!
then I had to visit the little girls room and when I came back everyone was holding hands and praying together and I was quite alright with missing out on that too – because I don’t like touching people or to have them touch me right – remember? my poor husband was mumbling through the hebrew portion. And then nice to meet ya see ya around.
But now that shavuot is on the horizon…all about being spirit filled and I just really feel…lame-o. I don’t want to go anywhere because everyone will be all spirit enhanced and I will be looking at them with one eyebrow raised and spoiling all the fun.